Amen to this:

“Will the children who are going to be raised from now on, the children who will be born from now on, be the least bit happy in a country overflowing with adults who are so rotten? Who can say to them "Live with pride"? If that kind of adult told me to be proud I'd kick their ass. "You get some pride!"”

["You're just a hypocrite with no money, don't get carried away with yourself, trash"].@.GIZ090 Trash, huh?… Well maybe some kind of trash. But there are still many things even trash can do. I'll prove it by getting results. That even trash can do it. Watch me.”

I never know what to write as a headline –.-

I can tell I have been eating too little nutricious food the past days. I haven’t done much and still I am feeling so ****** tired…

Even though I have very little problems left with food, I don’t really like to eat. It is still not fun. It is still not enjoyable. It only feels good when it calmes down the screaming stomach. Some days I just don’t feel like eating much…

That’s just how it is.

But this picture made me regain my powers quite a bit~!\（＾∀＾）/
He looks good! But I still wish for a better quality pic~ He was in Nagoya for “SHOW YOUR HEART” street-fundraising.

Me and my little gang also have some plans about our “SYH” project. He asks for photos and videos… So, we’re busy thinking of something nice to do. How to do it, what to say, where to be etc, etc………

Time for dinner, I am deadly hungry right now. Aaaaaaah~~~!!!

love
ZÄNDE

From my clean room~

Goodmorning ya all… I slept again.
I feel tired today, don’t really want to move around that much, not if I have to. But even so I am exercising right now.

It is funny, working my legs by standing up from the chair, then almost sitting down again, up again, almost down, up again… and so on, get it?

It’s painful training… Really painful… Ahahahaha~

Ahhh, my eyes feel heavy, I want to watching a movie. But I wont – there’s stuff to do~!! How was your day yesterday? Peasants, when I tell you to give me a report about your achievement I expect you to do so! Do not disappoint me again. Understood…??

Well then, I will forgive you this time, because I am so humble.

I have to go back to training not to fall asleep.
Have a good day everyone~!!  Work hard, ne? \( ^w^)/…

ZÄNDE

The way of the warrior

I am researching about samurai’s. Bushido. The samurai code: 

loyalty

devotion

obedience

duty

filial piety

respect

self sacrifice

honor to death


ZÄNDE

Danger!!Danger!!Danger!!

O_O It’s morning again! How did it happen??… oh right, I slept. Feeling crazyyyy today~ really crazy!! Oh no, you say… not again(!!!!!)

What ya think about the new header, made it yesterday before crashing in bed ^^… I think it is nice. BEAUTIFUL to say the least! Please, I understand if you can’t comment on this post because you are too astonished by it. It is totally fine, I understand *pats shoulder*
ahahahahahha. OK, get what I mean??

I have a loooot of time this morning to flail around bedore before I have to go to the magnificent school of Hell. LOL. 3 hours to go!!! Ahaha.

What is there to do?… Hmmm… work out. Yes. Practise drums. YES. Sing. YESH! Amazing plan. Now just gotta do it~ Nyahaha. Sun is shiniiiiing, ah omg I am too weird today, what happed to me while I slept? Some magical creature probably posessed me with the FlumAngel or sumthin’ so I became like this.

I am sorry.

I CAN’T HELP IT…!!! XD

My Dear Peasants; be good today on the field. There’s a lot of work to be done and I expect you to give me a report tonight about your achievements. Understood?? … Good, good. NOW GET BACK TO WORK---!!!!

I luff u all~

ZÄNDE

HEADLINE OF TODAY

No stop wait wrong pause noooo…….. Not like thiiiiiis!!! But ahahahahaha I have to laugh at myself and at everything I am doing right now. Up early, overslept, rushed to work, was there for 1 hour and went back home, I had the rest of the day off.

Lovely you may think?
Wrong---!!! …… Okaasannnnn is home until tomorrow, gaaah, so having her lurking around all day really got on my nerves~!!

Naaaaaaaaaaaaaaa, I wanted a nice day off…
Why this? Why? Tell me, please… Nuhuhuh..

¤#&#/”)(&&U¤&#!%!&#&¤=¤Y%# ok… wait one sec… my caps-lock is stuck…!! :o i can’t get it down to normal….. what on earth did i do now?! ahh god-chii do i really deserve this punishment? do i realllly?? hontou??????????

…oh wait I solved it…

*another embarassing silence* …

ahahahahahahahahaha---!!! Totally random! I will just go now. Bye. LOLLL.



ZÄNDE

“…sending down rain…”

I have always thought that human beings are extremely beautiful combined with rain……. Check this out and tell me what you think.

ZÄNDE

Let it ouuuuut---!!

Druming yesterday was a mess. LOL. I couldn’t get it right and I kinda shut down, so most of my lession we just did some kind of free-style madman druming.

Basically just letting my anger out on the drums. AHAHA.

Gotta buy drumsticks so I have at least something to practise with, I’ll see if I can do it today after school… Now there are no lessions for me in 3 weeks. BAHH. I want to impress when I get back, can I?

Oh Lord this is so me on the drums. *headdesking*  

ZÄNDE

Drums part 3

Hihihihihihihihihiii~ (*≧▽≦)

I am feeling sneaky so I will spam my blog today with totally random posts. No idea what to write as usual, but I waaaaant to write somethiiiing at least (￣▽￣)ノ…

Bwahahahahahaaa… OK. OK. OK?

Four minutes to go then I’m off to drum lession~ MIHI.

“JESUS” HERE I COME, I LOVE THEE. (The song alright not the dude………)

But I love the dude who has written it of course Ｏ(≧∇≦)Ｏ… *giggle*…

OK, now I really have to go. Bye bye Bo-HOO’s~~~!!

ZÄNDE

見えない目に涙を溜めて消えて逝く

Nooooooooooooooo-----!! FOCKING SHIET. Today is that annoying day when you have to set your clock 1 hour earlier. You miss one hour. Just like that…. Do you know how not aproved that is?!

So all of a sudden, we did not wake up at 10 AM, but at 11 AM…
Do you hear how my blood is boiling?? (>o<")

To be honest one more time with you I do not really want to go to my lession today, of course I will do it, but for some reason I do not feel like it. I will play “JESUS” today… Think I look forward to that though.

Anywho. I wish to go out or something, don’t wanna sit inside all day, but what is there to do? Oh right, maybe buy those boxes Youni-chan and I looked at yesterday… something to put our stuff and papers in, believe me, our room is messy.

Somehow I can’t stand it anymore…

And that little GAKU-chan hasn’t replied. Makes me slightly annoyed too. Of course there is a lot of things to be done, both for him and for us, but still, annoyed mood today (*￣m￣) …

OK.
I will eat breakfast now and then exercise. Hai. Sounds good. I will head off now. Soooooo see you later my little farmers!

ZÄNDE

So, so, so

I told you I would write again, so here I am but to be honest with you I have absolutely no idea what to write about. Feeling like hitting my head on the desk, think, make something up!

Is it working…? ＼(>o<)／

Seems like I am no master of writing blog entries…

So, so, so… *embarassing silence* …

(｡_｡) Yup. I suck. LOL.

……Ohhh, is it already 12.30 AM?
Then I should probably go get unconcious for a while.

Well then,
I see you in a while.

ZÄNDE

Early morning

Because of this rare happening, I awoke at 5.45 AM and went up. Of course this is what Youni-chan also did, because we both felt that we had slept enough for tonight.

WOW. This early on a saturday. 4 hours earlier than usual.

Since then a lot of stuff has been in motion, at least for being me on a saturday morning. I ate breakfast and checked my emails and so on, and then I worked out for a while, situps, legs, shoulders, etc. Took a shower. Left two aplications for a summer job. Searched around on the Net after an employment with dogs involved for other activities than just work during summer. And finalllllly I got myself a membership in  Nacka-Brukshundkubb.

I have a feeling I will have to take a nap later this afternoon. I am already feeling my head is getting slightly heavy.

Demo…
Now it is time to get outside for a while. Sunny but cold.
I will write later.

ZÄNDE

P.S. Youni-chan (and I) are e-mailing back and forth with GACKT himself. Omg.

Sweet dreams tonight?

Good morning ya all~~~ ヾ(＾∇＾)
How have you slept? What have you dreamt?

I actually dreamed that I was flying to Japan, but my flight got out of fuel in the air so we had to do an emergency landing on the water. Wow. Frighteniiiing~! ( >_<) We got rescued, and was moved to another aeroplane, those who wanted to continue the travel to Japan was allowed to do so. And of course I still wanted it… Landet in Japan safely, checked in on a hotel… weird thing though when I looked outside the window; Fukushima 1 was like 50 meters from our hotel. UWAAH (*´ο`*)=3…

Asked my friend (you know who) if we could stay at his place due to the rediation, we could, but the others didn’t want to for some strange reason so I went there myself. Shortly after dear Gaku showed up with the band, LOL, and I got surprised because he certainly didn’t look like himself! Nothing really special like that but, it just wasn’t him. As you can imagine I spend my time hanging with the boys and had a pretty good time Ｏ(≧∇≦)Ｏand later on I found out I had been in Japan one time before, which made me highly confused. LOL.

Woke up by the alarm clock. Time to leave for school. Another day of weirdness~! I’m in a good mood (^^)b…
Once again; HAVE A GOOD DAY PEASANTS!!!  

ZÄNDE

Random talk when I should hurry.

My left shoulder hurt terribly… wahahaha as usual I have over-worked. Anyway I kinda lost track of what I was going to write in the first place…

Yesterday I was at a meeting at Youni-chan’s school, took about an hour or so, we discussed the possibilities of me studying there the last year.

It is the final year already…

I liked the atmosphere far more than I do at my current working place. It was smaller, but white and bright rooms, a more welcoming feeling indeed…

And I think I can say I feel more motivated to study when thinking about starting there. You are seen as an adult, and not a teenager. Those who study there vary in ages from 18 to 45. I will be one of the youngest.

I see that positively.
I think that I will grow as a person and learn from the older students, not only about school-subjects but also about life? I have a feeling that could be possible….

I can’t write any more now though, I have to get going. Actually I am in a hurry, as always. Ahahaha.

Feeling happy today. YOOOSH~!!
HAVE  A GOOD DAY PEASANTS!!

ZÄNDE

Not a single cloud in the sky

After such an horrible day yesterday we are in need for some fun and laughter today. So therefore we have just bought tickets to a movie at 12.30, and before that we are going out looking in some stores and buy muffins for lunch (bad us!!). And after that I’ll head off to my drum lession. I’ll probably take the bus this time if we’re not going home for a while before that. Anyway.

I hope today will get better, I can’t handle days like yesterday.

Iiiiiih, the sun is shining! Off I go!! ( ﾟ▽ﾟ)/

ZÄNDE

It has been 1 week already

Morning my friends. Is it bad to have a better feeling in my heart today? It feels like there’s a little more hope than it was yesterday. I was worried sick yesterday to the extent that I almost got a panick-attack in school, and hyperventilated, and  a massive amount of sweating. As you surely can tell it wasn’t pleasant at all. Some of you have said to me that I worry too much, that it doesn’t help Japan to worry… I have donated money, and I send my thoughts to them, for now that is all I can do. And my worries are my, somewhat strange way, of showing that I truly care. For me, the more you feel, the more you care. But that of course can vary from person to person…

I have to get going to school now, kinda long day. At least I have lessions that kills brain cells. My head already hurt. It was like that when I woke up already. The tension from yesterday has become a terrible headache… my eyes look so tired… Oh well, no time to lose, I’ll see you later.

ZÄNDE

what was that..?

Howdy, what’s up with you all? I just woke up actually. Not because I was particulary tired or anything when I fell asleep but… lack of anything else to do I thought I could allow myself to close my eyes for a while.

…… oh.

Perfect, now I lost track of what I was going to write. So I’ll humbly leave my blog for now. Guhhhh… I think my mood drastically sank as well.

ZÄNDE

Japan, drums, Japan…

For the love of God. I have to start focusing on something else for a while… Japan is spinning around in my head non-stop. I have to donate money. When I’ll get home today I’ll bring my family together and do it. OK, nuff said…

AGGGH IT FEELS SO BAD CHANGING SUBJECT, TOO!! >__<

I had my first drum lession yesterday, it was awzuuuum~!! It was actually easier than I thought it would be. Mahahahaaa drumming is so much funnnnn! (^U^)/ My lessions are 30 minutes every sunday, for me I think it’s perfect amount of time because otherwise I will get so full of information so I’d mess up completely. But maybe I’d like to go twice a week instead of one. But well that’s nothing I can do about it.

So I will practise on my own everyday, trying to remember all the exercises my sensei teached me. It will be fun. I guess I have to go to school now. Ugh…

My heart is constantly aching for the people in Japan. And I can’t stop worrying about big brother G… it feels terrible. Pleaaase, make an end to this…

ZÄNDE

It is unbelievable…

I am crying inside… It is so heart breaking…

ZÄNDE

The journey towards a dream

I have to leave now for my first drum lession, it is pretty close to where I live, so I am going to walk. What makes me extremely nervous is that I do not really know the exact location, my iPhone shows me 2 different places, but the one that is correct… no idea. Should I text message my teacher? I don’t even know him. Oh well, it is time to start fulfilling this dream.

ZÄNDE

Praying for Japan

My thoughts go to Japan right now. The earthquake and the tsunami have left the country in total chaos. Ugh, these happenings makes me extremely sad… but what can you do about it? Mother nature can’t be stopped, can she? I truly hope the Japanese people are going to be alright.

And now there’s eartquakes in the Philippines too, my thoughts goes to all the countries affected by this. I pray for everyones safety. Take care and help each other.

ZÄNDE

Very special day <3

Happy birthday to you, happy birthday to you, happy birthday dear Julia~~~ Happy birthday to youuuu~~~!!

My 12 year-old best friend. I love you.
(picspam ahead)

I love you soo much, my little friend. I hope we’ll get many more years together. Everyday is a blessing and a miracle. Thank you for being in my life, from when I was little, up until now.

I love you, my little cat.

Books how I miss you

I really want to start reading more books again, I long for books, but the motivation to actually finish a one is vague… I love books, to be honest, I used to read all the time a couple of years ago. I must take it up again! I love old books, they look so beautful and I highly prefer them instead of pocket books.

I want to read—!!

ZÄNDE

Are you afraid of the dark?

(^-^*)/ First day back at school, came home about 5 PM. Now got a purring cat in my lap, warm and cozy..

.. Ohh, no there she left… o(>< )o!! come back~~!!

WTF…and now our whole apartment went dark o__o… OK it’s strange… and my mom is going bananas, she’s doing a GACKT - “fuck fuck fuck fuck..!!” LOL.

OK, better save the comp batteries…

AHAHAHA

Younii-chan: Then what shall we do all evening? No computers and no TV?

Me: …Have sex? *smirk*

Younii-chan: I should have seen that comming…

Z

And here I go again…

ALALALALALALA I’m awake earlier than usual, and we’re going out to Old Town today to buy Younii-chan a new hematite ring, since her broke the other day. I’m just a liiiittle hyped up at the moment, I don’t know why but better be hyped than something else, ne? OK.

Because we’re going to Uppsala tomorrow to meet the gang, I bought sumthin’ to wear. Uploadie a piccie later I guess. Oh good Lord I’m writing shit just to write something… But OK so we’re going out dancing tomorrow, and bwahahahaha you’ll get a lot of pictures from that as well. Be prepareeeeeeeeeed for picspam!!!

Yesterday I had the most hyped up phone conversation with Jun-ji2/L-chan… and I was in the middle of a store at the moment so I kinda made people look at me. ALALALA~!!! No. Stop it. Now… Can’t be this pumped up while trying to write an entry here. *stern look*.

Gonna go stretch for a while now. Then offfff we go.

Z

Om nom nom nom neee!

Z

Nightly stretching

It has become a habbit to stretch every evening. Flexibility here I come! Younii-chan is a great assistant. My forhead and eyes are hurting a lot and I have been a bit unsteady the whole day. Let’s hope tonight’s going well, without anything spinning around.

Now it’s movie time, and then off to bed I guess.

I can’t wait to stretch again!! First thing in the morning, anyone? … Oh, and I’ll upload pictures from grandma’s place tomorrow.

Goodnight n’ sleep tight.

Z

Get at least 1 tattoo–done!

Randomly, I got myself a tattoo yesterday:

My first tattoo!! Ｏ(≧∇≦)ＯLOL. It hurt, but I kinda liked it. Masochist desu! Bwahahahaha~! Anyway, now off to grandma for lunch. She wasn’t that happy about me getting graffiti onto my body, nyahaha! But I’m glad it’s permanent. This tattoo will follow me for the rest of my life. There are many dreams to make come true, and this is a reminder of that. I’m happy.