Lumene

Bought this today. LOL. First time I’m buying something for my skin. I thought I’d make an effort here to really take care of my face, a little pricey, but it feels good to use it. Actually, I am going to use it straight away – past midnight and my bed is waiting for me. Goodnight ya all.

ZÄNDE

Before I die, I want to…

• See GACKT live again.
• Master my voice like a pro!
• Travel to Japan, or move there.
• Learn how to play the drums, piano, violin & guitar.
• Become fluent in the japanese language.
• Start a band and perform ☆.
• Get muscular.
• Be able to move people ♥ .
• Get vigorous.
• Find my inner peace.
• Have sex with a man.
• Get at least 1 tattoo.
• Get a lip piercing.
• Lift Cha2 up in the air! ♥ ‘ur so cute!!
• Swim with dolphins~
• Become fluent in english.
• Learn to speak with a british accent.
• Buy a house on the country and have a horse again… I miss my horses (R.I.P. The Rose ;_;)
• Travel to as many places as possible.

Well, that’s it for now I guess ^^ Many more things to do, but can’t come to think of any at the moment…

ZÄNDE

“I LOVE YOU ALL”

OMG. Dears limited is released TOMORROW!!!!!! OMGGGG I can’t wait to recieve mine!! *bounce bounce* I’m so happy right now! But I’m gonna cry like a child when I watch it, cuz all the memories will be brought to the surface again, and oh my, I still miss that day so much it hurts. Can’t stop thinking about it. Every day since then I’ve been thinking about it. Best day of my life!! I’m serious now, I’ve never experienced anything like it. OMG. It’s a fucking documentary about a tour that I ATTENDED. o_________O OMGGGGGG. OK now gotta stop fangirling like this, but aaaaaaah I am a faaaan~!! LOL. I’m so excitedddddd.

ZÄNDE

Picspam Tattoos

Dangerous picspam over here. I happened to check out tattoologist and found interesting pictures of tattoos… Aw I want tattoos soon!! Meanwhile, check these out. Click to enlarge them ヾ(＾∇＾).

I’ve gotten very fond of the birds, especially on the schoulderblades. Something tells me I won’t be able to control myself and I’ll get birds like that. LOL. And I’m thinking of putting the japanese signs “yume” & “kiai” on each shoulder, instead of on the underarms. Sounds good? I’m all giggly!
ヘ(^_^ヘ)(ノ^_^)ノ ...

ZÄNDE

Computers n’ stuff

LOL. Been mixing and trixing with my blog for ages now, and see any difference? No. Nyahahaha. I’m the master of trixing around without getting results. Always getting stuck and walking in circles. LOL. My header is new though. I LUUUV IT. I’m desperate for something new and fresh, but no matter how much I changed it, it wasn’t good enough.

Felt I got more and more tired, drained, blog-stuff is making my head die. Ahahahaha, I’m serious! It’s something with it, I can’t keep up for long – too complicated!!! Ahahahaha I am not very good with computers, I guess? Luckily I don’t have to do it that often… even though it’s no one forcing me to change blog-themes or anything… Just… I want some changes now and then.

Jesus, I’m just gibbering right now, ain’t I? So be it. Anyway, I thought I’d stay home today… I didn’t have any strenght to go to school. I even called in and reported myself ill. About 10 minutes later I changed my mind… was it the beautiful snowflakes? I was looking out the window, they danced down so peacefully. Truly it was beautiful…

I was late… but I came, and that’s what matters. I’m holding on. The last 3 months will pass in the blink of an eye, surely they will. Like everything else.

ZÄNDE

SHALALALALA~!!!!

*deep deep breath* … OK.

Feeling so dizzy, slightly feverish. But fuck that! I have about two hours before I have to get going, SO that’s perfect for some voice practise. Promised L-chan I’d record something for her… wonder which song though.

Anywho, my abs are sore, ouch ouch ouch, HOHO, I’ve been training again. Luuuvly~!! ^U^b

Feeling the magic of the AB-ROLLER.

KIAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAI GOD DAMMIT!!!

OMGackt.

Now gotta singggg, see yaaa brusers n susers.
Wubbbb u allll~!!

ZÄNDE

Edit: Home staying day.

*sigh*….

Help. I can’t find any motivation what so ever. School is driving me mad. One more week, I knoooow! But I’ve really had it. GARGH. I don’t like this at all. Blerghhhhh.

Not even big brother G can send some power today.
NYAAAH---!! What shall I do??? Can’t skip school, can I!!?

No, absolutely not.

I guess today is one of those days when I feel lonely and sad. Days like this are not aproved. End of sentence.

What can I do to feel stronger again??…

ZÄNDE

~Shima Uta~

My favourite song at the moment.
I can’t stop listening to it……………

Heavenly.

ZÄNDE

Uhm… Hi?

Oh Jesus Christ… I was just cuddling down in bed to warm up my frozen body, but it apparently became too cozy that I fell asleep. And I think that I only slept for an hour but that can be terribly wrong, too… my head is not really awake.

Oughhh, someone was chatting with me on messenger before I got unconcious, I guess it was L-chan, am I right? If so, I am truly sorry. Leaving the conversation like that it not very polite, is it?

Nyaaaaa~ finally the nausea has calmed down a little, naps like these can really mess up my system.

Well then, this should be able to keep me awake for yet another 2 hours or so. If there’s something to do, that is… *drinking water* … wake up! Wake up! Wake up! Myahaha I feel so messed up. I really do. Ahahahahahahahaha.

No, OK, *deep breath*…

It has been too much emotions going on the past days. I feel so drained… Hoho.

ZÄNDE

Gender-confused EGO?!

ZÄNDE

Day ended safely.

I have a cold, yep, my body hurt for some reason, I am attacked by my obligatory mouth sores that comes with the illness, and it stings like Hell! ☆⌒(＞。≪)…….. PAIN.

Let’s stay positive, shall we?!! ＼（＾ ＾）／

I have great news to share with you all: I have reached 45 kilos~!! *proud face* Isn’t it wonderful? …I have already started making fun of myself, saying “fat-jokes” now and then, wyahahahahahahahaha~!! 

My-chan, I am ready to have our British movie-night!!! When are you ready?! Ｏ(≧∇≦)Ｏ!!! KIAI—!! I will send you strength.

Well then… I guess I’ll be off to bed now…
Wub u guys…

［(－－)］ZZzzz...

ZÄNDE

BAM BAM BAM~

OHAI~!! I’m writing something here at least ^.^v… The nightclub thingie last friday was absolutely an experience – I was asked by a tall guy with cool hair if I was a lesbian, LOL whut?? But I said no. Danced around and tried not to fall over. Bwahaha!

Took a lot of pictures, but guess what? I won’t bother uploading them here since everything’s available on Facebook anyway. So go there check them out if you haven’t already!!! LOL.

YESTERDAY I was at the hospital to check my balance organs. HEH. I was shitty afraid that the doc was going to make me have an attack right there, so I asked M if she could come with me, along with Okaasan, LOL. I had to sit on the brits and the doctor was kind of throwing me from side to side while I kept my eyes on her nose, to see if my eyes started to live a life of their own, hehehe……. they didn’t, and I didn’t get dizzy~ whoa!! I also had to do fall back in her arms… not funny. But the crystals in my ears was in their right positions. No harm done.

I got a few things to practise on, morning and evening. Simple. Really. Basically this:

And some head and eye-movements.

AND today I got a cold, so I couldn’t sleep. And I’ve been buying two cups of tea in school today, my throat hurt so much T^T … Oh I’ve been eating well today~~~myehehe, this is going fiiiiine! Just fine! “Look at my stomach, it has gotten bigger, hasn’t it?” “….YEAH you’re right! :O” XD LOL, conversations between M and I.

Now, gotta go watch The Dog Whisperer on TV.

ZÄNDE

P.S. watch out for human-hybrids. They wanna get “inside you…”   (Splice)

OHAI~~~!!

What an interesting day, I came to school at 8.30 to find out that my teacher was lost, LOL. He didn’t show up, and I ended up sitting around for sbout 4 hours… untiiiiil I could to my test in Society. Jeez.

It was a blizzard outside, tons of snow… oh my God it was a mess. So on my way home I had to wait for the train for 25 minutes. NEVERRRRR—!!! I RAN the last station. In 1 meter high snow……. Exhausted!!!

Liza is on her way here right now, we are going out tonight to a club~ Kristina is coming later~! It will be interesting, and I hope we make it back home tonight XD…

She’ll be here any minute, so I’ll go rest for a short while.
I’m a little tired…



P.S. my comp is back :* !!!

ZÄNDE

Mew…

Ugh I just can’t seem to wake up in time, can I? I was meant to get up at 6 a.m. but when the phone rang I closed my eyes for only a secound, and ooooops! Slept 1,5 hours. Major headdesk—!!! –__- Gotta shape up, huh?

And now this morning I feel a little sad, thinking about relationships and all that… damn. I wish it was easy.

ZÄNDE

Music is life

It’s my day off, and I’m spending it singing. It’s proceeding well I think! I found some vocal tips a couple of weeks ago and as I added them to my singing I improved at once. My larynx is moving around too much as I take low notes, so I’m practising on making it remain as still as possible. And also, my throat and tongue muscles that kind of takes over my ability to produce sounds, instead of my chords. That’s why my throat end up being all thick and sore. So that’s what I’m doing today… singing singing singing and singing some more. But there’s nothing as wonderful as singing, in my opinion. It gives me so much joy (and tears sometimes ahaha).

And the reason why I started singing – is GACKT. It’s funny, I wanted to be as good as he is, so suddenly my dreams of becoming an actress vanished and new dreams came to life. Becoming a singer!! Even though I don’t know if that dream is going to be made real or not, it is a fun hobby. Of course I am going to see how far I can take it, and I will walk towards that dream… but if I don’t make it as a vocalist… I’m gonna be a drummer instead!!! LOL. Seriously I can’t live without music, because it is my passion. “But you don’t even play any instruments ya fool!” naaaaah that’s true, but it is my passion anyway.

I have always wanted to be a part of a band, since I was little I’ve written many lyrics and tried to compose music, I have always loved to sing, and my vocal teacher said that there are no limits to how good I can become. That made me happy.

NO MUSIC – NO LIFE.

ZÄNDE

From Z’s train window.

 I took this while I was on the train to Nandemonai Tokoro with soulmate-chan to spend christmas there. It is beautiful, don’t you think? (The dark spot in the sky is not dirt, in fact, it’s a snowflake my iPhone caught at the same time LOL.) Have to go to bed now, ugaaah. I have a day off tomorrow – so I’m very happy!!

Nighty night~~ ( ^o^)

ZÄNDE

♪♪♪~

Morniiiing ~~~ヾ(＾∇＾) ♪
It’s that time again, morning… I wish I could sleep longer. Soon off to aerobic class though, I hate these early mornings. And on top of it my one bracelet broke ｍ（．＿．）ｍ arigato ne!! So soulmate-chan is fixing it right now… *sniff* (TへT) ♡♡♡ I luff u... Well that’s about it for now as I have to rush again. But I’ll see you soon~!! Yep.

Have a nice day everyone!!

ZÄNDE