おはよー !!

Good morning to you!! ~~~ヾ(＾∇＾) ♪
As usual these days - we/SHE overslept again. It is a serious problem. Because she starts earlier than me basically everyday I don’t feel responsible for us getting up from bed in time… LOL. But without my help, it seems impossible…! Ahahaha, I’m too lovely to cuddle next to in bed ♡ ~!! *jokin*

AH. I found these hilarious pictures when surfing around on LiveJournal. I LOVE YFC.

 
See, he’s replacing KFC’s “K” with “Y”… ☆★☆★☆★☆★ YFC YFC YFC YFC—!!! To finally see an adult human being goof around like this makes me so happy. The worlds grown ups are too stiff and boring for my taste. LOL.


Now dear friends I have to get going and run to work. An amazing day is here~~~ ☆! Go create a miracle today \( ^ ∀^)/ –!!!

And whatever they say never change your waaay~♪

ZÄNDE

Oh sunshine

BAH. Been doing homework for the first time in ages. Studying society. It’s like swahili to me. Honestly… the words are going in trough one ear and comes out the other one. Nothing makes sense. But I think I got it this time, I think I did. Maybe it’s not as bas as I thought?

And Okaasan was waking us up at 10 a.m.
knocking the door with all her power… No wonder I felt sick after I woke up （．＿．）. Morning sickness, yepppp! It’s almost like I’m pregnant or something like that. Ahhahahaha~ I’m the new Maria. Getting pregnant without having even touched a man. LOL. No I’m just kidding.

Can’t deny I’m eating a lot too though…

What about today? Sun is shining, lovely weather for a walk. But just taking walks without a goal is to me waste of time. If it doesn’t have a meaning, why do it? I’ll have to get out a little today anyway to return a rented movie. Randomz huh..? *nodd nodd*

Because my Acer computer is handed in for reparation, I have to use normal music players in order to listen to music or to sing. And Lucky for me – I have the Nine*Nine box with all the live versions of G’s songs! It’s in situations like these I thank the Lord that I have it. We sang yesterday evening, for about 2 hours or so… The volume can be really loud with these speakers and it was so amusing not to hear a single tone you sang. I had absolutely no idea if I was singing in the right key or not, and it made me push my voice more than I actually needed. That led to a thick throat in the end. To cover one ear when you sing is a good way to help you hear yourself… There will be the same volume today, but hopefully not the same thickness in my throat. It damages a lot.

I think I have to go get some lunch down now,
and then I’m going to throw myself into singing~!!

See you soon.

ZÄNDE

Nuuuuh T^T

Ah mega poop!! My  own computer, an Acer 5738ZG, has somehow broken down… The comp itself is still working but the screen has gone black. Suddenly, it snapped. BAH!

I was checking my blog yesterday evening, just starting a conversation with a family member over msn, and *plop*… the screen goes black. I am then thinking the comp is just putting itself into stand-by position for some reason, but the music is still playing and it doesn’t really shut down as it usually does.

“What the actual fuck..?!” I start hitting the comp…
-screen still black-
*blood starts boiling*
“I’LL KILL YOU, YOU WORTHLESS MACHINE! FUCK TAKE TECNOLOGY-!!!!!!!!!”

Ok, so I’m really losing it at this point, I restart it a few times but no miracle happens so I do my usual “I’ve-gone-totally-nuts-spazzout” and demolish the living room. LOL.

So that’s why I can’t update from my own computer in a while,
And yes it’s driving me mad. I have no sound system on this old comp (demaged by me… –.-) so I can’t listen to music… and other stuff like that. Ahahaha~ Oh awesum!

But I guess you guys don’t notice any difference. I hope this still comes out the same.

I look forward to tomorrow!!!  Chinese new year in town, gotta take some pictures!!
Today is a home-staying-day. BORING.

”Good day to you!!”

ZÄNDE

Grab n’ run

Fashion..? ME?!

Waah, cute! I could so wear this outfit. Cool to come from me, ne? But I’ve decided not to refuse everything that’s girly or more feminin just because I see myself as a boygirl. I will wear everything that’s comfortable and look nice, let it be boyish or girlish – it doesn’t matter. I am very pleased with this, and I look forward to spring! Ｏ(≧∇≦)ＯWiiiiiiie~~!

ZÄNDE

--☆--:*:--☆*:— ^^

Took this little picture while I was having math in school today, it looks sooooooo boring ( –.-) ZzzZzz…

School can really come up with dumb things, I tell you.
Once again I had to get up at 6 a.m. to have aerobics at 8. But what am I good at nowadays??? – SLEEPING! So I overslept
(_ _)ヾ(‘ロ‘). LOL.

But I went anyway!!! Even though I was 30 minutes late, but but but oh myyyy I weeeent~! Normally I’d just take that lession off, or stay home the entire day instead, LOLOLOL, no gooooood!! (>_<)○------(^o^)○

but I went I went I went I went I went I went I went..! *proud face*

What more juicy details can I give you?

AH. This is highly amusing-!! YFC DVD coming out, and, ahahahaha, Mr.G kidnaped the Kentucky Fried Chicken-statue. I’ll upload that piccie tomorrow – just because it’s funny.

Gotta go pay some attention to my partner.

ZÄNDE

Just because, hehe.

He looks cute and always manages to show a smile~
I’m trying to become like that too.

ZÄNDE

From yesterday,ya

 

ZÄNDE

GACKT Europe 2011!!

He is coming back… so soon! Much sooner than I dared to hope!!

It’s already been more than half a year since I saw him in London at O2 Academy Islington, and now he’s coming back – with a bigger tour!!

More dates, more countries, bigger venues.

I can just hope he will come to Sweden, Stockholm.
I’m all hyped up about it. And I hope I will be able to get a ticket for at least one concert this time as well~

Oh my… My heart is aching with joy and excitment!


ZÄNDE

~~~hmm?~~~

AAAAH—!! I don’t have anything to write… Hmpff.

Later on today, me, Soulmate-chan and mum will go see some kind of circus performance.

Have I told you I used to be a part of a circus group?

ZÄNDE

When I’m tired.

It’s too early. Forced to wake up before 7 o’clock is a nightmare. It’s too early I tell you. School is a nightmare, today’s lessions are from 8.15 a.m. to 15.40 p.m. They can’t be serious… I guess I’m spoiled, that’s true, with very few lessions a day, starting after 10 a.m. every day… so I whine when I have to get up early… School shouldn’t be allowed to start earlier than 9 a.m. cuz’ this is sick man..! People live further away than I do too, I don’t even want to know when they have to get up…

Besides, the bed is too comfortable. Especially in this cold country this time of the year… it’s so dark outside. Even the experts say that teenagers have a differen biological rythm that gets troublesome when combined with school’s schedules.

Ahhh, I shouldn’t sit here and write this much right now. I’m going to get dressed and ready to leave. Talk to ya later~~~!

ZÄNDE

Paradise is earthly~

We had an outdoor day at S-work today. I wasn’t very happy about it at all at first, but it turned out pretty good!


We were devided into groups of 7 people in each.
After the first activity we had to race down the slope on gauze squares………. which could only end in total disaster I secretly murmured to myself. They bagan to race, and while I was awaiting my turn there was an accident; a girl in my class had gotten badly hurt. The race was stopped for a while, until the sensei’s decided to make the race a bit “safer” by letting us race on a much shorter part of the slope….
SO THEY THOUGHT(!!)

We continued….
and my turn had come…. I ran fast fast fast…. and then….
I slipped when I was about to turn around and race down….

You wanna know what happened….?!
I managed to SPRAIN MY THUMB!!!!! It hurt like shit. I finished the race, put my hand in the snow………And now I’m sitting here with my hand in bandage and painkillers. Yup yup~!! ^U^

Anywho, I didn’t wanna sit here in front of the comp all evening, so I suggested to Soulmate that we should go to a café. We did ………… and we found our place    …

The muffins were HUGE and the latte was HEAVENLY~~~!!
I long to visit “The muffin factory” again

ZÄNDE

*falls off chair*…

ZÄNDE

What today gave me:

I’m totally hyped up, but in a sleepy-weird way…
I have been eating a lot of food + 1000 calories extra consisting of chocolate. OMG. 200g’s chocolate can never be healthy!! I wish I could work out right now cuz’ I’m THIS hyped, buuuuuut because I am suposed to gain weight I will just sit here, still and calmly, and wait for the calories to get sucked up in my system and stay theeeere..!!!!! LOL.

After school today I finally had the courage to do something kind for someone – I went to meet Soulmate after school without her knowledge, I thought maybe it could be a nice thing to do ya know……… I waited for 20 minutes, and then I got a text message from her that says she’s already home waiting for me cuz’ she finished school earlier this day….

My heart broke. This happens EVERY TIME I try to do something kind to others, no matter who it is…!! AGH. I am going nuts about the fact that I must have some kind of bad luck, bad sense of timing, or maybe just pure CLUMSINESS.

Anywayyyyy, I went home, locked myself into the bathroom and wept like a child. LOL.

It takes a lot of courage for me to do these acts of kindness,
and almost every time – I fail, one way or another………..DUH.
BUT IT IS THE THOUGHT THAT COUNTS!! NE??

SO HERE I AM now and I have a strange desire to drink water…whuut?? LOL. You know what I am going to do now????
Watch TELEVISION—!!

Bye bye.

EDIT: dammit, mum’s watching TV and won’t let me do it, guh!

ZÄNDE

Sleepyness, uwaaah.

Aggggggggggggggggghhhhhhh--------!!!
Let me sleeeeeeeeeep~~~!!! I just wanna sleep, please…
Uwaaah so tired, and the bed is soooo warm and cozy…
Just want to lie there all morning, at least for 2 more hours…

Loving my bed way too much!

I just wanna cuddle. I don’t want to do todays tasks.
AHAHAHAHA. Can I do something about it? No.

Time for some vocal practise in an hour or so, and then off to work… Gotta get the money!!

OK then.



ZÄNDE

Just a thought…

Todays subject is going to be about children…

I personally don’t want kids, and when I say those words, people (mostly women) give me looks that makes me wonder if this woman suddenly got possessed by the Devil.

It seems like just because you are a woman, you automatically have a desire to have children. Even though most women work like that, because it’s partly driven by instinct, I think it’s awfully wrong to say that all of us females want kids…

I respect those who want kids, if no one wanted kids – humankind would be extinct eventually. But I cannot help to get extremely heated up when people go “Whaaaat..? You don’t want kids??? WHY???” It’s good that not all women wants kids. The world is already packed with humans.

With kids, you get bound up… and I don’t want to live that kind of life. I have my visions, dreams about the future that not includes children. If I were to have a child, I don’t think I could do everything I want to do. And the world doesn’t end just because -->I<-- don’t leave any offsprings.

But maybe…
that could be one of the reason why most people cry out so desperately after a child of their own; they want to leave something behind when their time is up.

Everyone wants to be remembered, everyone wants to leave something behind… I want that for myself too of course…
But I want to leave something else, something that doesn’t die out eventually in everyones memory……..

I don’t know what it is yet – but I think that every day, I get one step closer in finding the answer.

Our existence is not for granted, no one knows for sure if they are going to take another breath tomorrow, and I can’t say for sure that I won’t die in my sleep tonight…

But with that in mind,
…I believe we can live our lives to the fullest, enjoying every moment of it…

And may that life be with or without children, I won’t judge anyone, so don’t judge me - let it be a happy life.
But for me, right now, ‘despite’ the fact that I am a woman, a life without children seem much happier to me.

ZÄNDE

Todays adventures.

Nacka Forum today with beloved. I had a latte and a carrot pastry which was heavenly. They are seasonal ^^ in summer they have strawberries as decorations, winter time is cinnamon~!

I bought a mobile strap from Accessories with the UK flag on, that I made into a necklace. Wiiiiiie~~~ ^U^!!
And I even bought a dress…………………….. Yes.

It looks absolutely lovely though,
I can’t recall the last time I wore a dress… ahahahahaha~~~!!

I AM LIVING SERIOUSLY—!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
HOW ABOUT YOU GUYS?!?!?!?!?!?!?!!!

ZÄNDE

Live _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _!!

aaaaaaaaaahh~~~~~ it’s that time again…
I am really sssssleepy!

Since my body recovered from the illness I have been in really good shape, I feel great! Woo~!
Started enjoying life a little bit more, ahahaha. Living seriously!

I have started stretching again by the way, ohohohohhh how it hurts(!!!!!!). Waaahahah~~~ but it is a pleasant pain somehow. It’s easy to start doing it now. It’s just to DO it.
Living seriously.!

And singing singing singing singiiiiiing~   (!!!)



Happy with myself, can I allow myself to be that? Yes, I think so. Iiiiiiih~~~! And homework is done and handed in.

I’m just gibbering now, ain’t I? (o_<;;) …

The point is… YOU HAVE TO FREAKIN’ LIVE SERIOUSLY—!!

Play seriously, work seriously, talk seriously, sleep seriously, everything you do you must do with total commitment and devotion. That’s just how things work. It is.

In the near future there will be a lot of activities going on.
Playing drums, vocal training, tattooing, piercing my lip.

I’m excited~~!!!!!!!!!!


ZÄNDE

Drums~!!

I will learn this!! ROCK ROCK ROCK ROCK—!!! Hopefully starting playing drums in 2-3 weeks.

ZÄNDE

ROCK ROCK ROCK ROCK ROCK-!!

My sexy sexy boy~

ZÄNDE

I like this.

I have had one of those really good days.
Seeing friends and meeting new great people must be one of the best things in this world. They truly lifts your spirit!

We met up with Liza (Jun-ji2) in Uppsala and went to a café in town, we sat there for a couple of hours together with 3 other crazy friends of hers.

We also got our christmas present which was a gift card, that could be used in a store just around the corner. We went there of course—!! OH my… I don’t even wanna tell you. Nope. I don’t. Ahahahahahahahahahahahahah~~~!!!

Ready steady, GO!
LOL.

I-FOUND-A-HAT!! After 6 freaking months I finally found it.
How I love that store……….
They also had a scarf that had the UK flag on it.. I so wanted to buy it, but I let it be for now since I wasn’t sure how much money I had left, LOL.

After that fun fun funnnn in the stores we headed off to a chinese restaurant for dinner. AGH. Lovely food!

I have never been to a restaurant with friends only.
I must do it more often! :D

Back home now, body is tired but my soul is on fire.

ZÄNDE