Just…

Home from our summer house. Ah…
We had a nice Midsummer, lots of happy people, children everywere (uwaaah) and best of all, a lot of yummy stuff to eat!!

Anywho…

Tomorrow I’m traveling to Gotland with Y2.
Heading off 8.30 A.M. I’m excited!

Lately I’ve been thinking more and more; in just 4 months from now, I will be allowed to drink alcohol.
It’s like a rule I have. I DO NOT drink until I’m 18 years old.

I’m proud I’ve been able to keep that rule until now! Just a little bit more.

Damn, I’ve become so slow writing entries.
I don’t know what to write… Aggh… Meoww…

I long for the GACKT-concert… it’s closing in!!!
I have no idea what it’ll be like. Him standing in front of me…
I think it’d be alright to die afterwards.

Ahahahaha~~~

Naah, joking. Afterwards it’s time to ganbette our butts off
That’s for sure. No matter how hard it’s gonna be, I’m gonna make it.
”Make what?” … I don’t know.

We’ll just see what I set my mind to.

CHIBIGAKU2

Adults.

I've come to understand that adults are so unbelievably lousy att fighting with each other.
Do they know what it means to be adults? I think not.

Okaasan and her "guy" is in the middle of a fight.
They've been so uncontrollably angry at each other, and it's been going on for weeks!
Ok, Okaasan isn't angry any more, but P is still.
It wasn't even a big deal from the start, so why do they continue this fight? It's pointless.
They can't even talk to each other over the phone anymore...

I get all like "o_o what?" ...

Why must adults go on and on and on about fighting, why is it so hard to just sit down and talk calmly with one another and come to a conclusion?

Things like this really buggs me.
I mean Y2 and I have something to argue about every day, but we don't slam the door or leave, we sit and talk. The heat goes up - but it will also fall. Do adults really have this lack of self control?
It's almost laughable.

How fun is it to go with bad emotions for weeks, without making any progress, when you could try to calm down and at least have the goal to be friends again. I understand why this world is going towards Hell than Heaven... all these adults hanging around.

I really hope the next generation, along with myself, takes this world to a better future. In every way.
Luckily there's a few people out there who have understood this, you all have my thanks!

Being an adult, there's no good in making excuses for yourself, you have to be able to handle everything on your own and take responsibility over your actions. If you can't do this, how will the next generation become? We learn from the older generation. Mimic their actions in their way of being, we do so because we're told that "this is how it's suposed to be".

How can that be the right way to be, when it's so wrong!
Wrong wrong wrong.

I will never allow myself to be like that.
This world have had enough of adults like that. And I'm so so so happy that I stumbled into Gackt-san almost 5 years ago. Thanks to him I will reach adulthood with a heart and spirit full of love and power.
I'm not saying this is the "Right way" either...
but for me, he's one of those rare adults that should really be dominating this world, and by that, this is the "right way" for me.

So off I go. I've talked too much today, hai?

CHIBIGAKU2

P.S. my arm is killing me. Can't move it! Maaa... I should go murder my abs, so I won't have to think about the pain any more. Aahahahahah~

After 4,5 hours of sleep.

I feel great! Goodmorning, again! ^^
Maybe too few hours of sleep, but honestly I tend to feel really good after sleeping this little.

Ahh, my head was puonding so hard when I tried to sleep...
The muscles trying to relax but failed kinda hard xD
I fell asleep at 5.10 A.M. and woke up without dizzyness at 9.30 A.M...

I wonder what I will do today.
The sun invites for a sunbath, at least! Jesus I got burned again yesterday, bad me!
We don't want to get cancer, huh?

My arms and legs hurt.
I can't do anything with my right arm, the biceps are too sore from my training.
And when I try to walk I can't extend my legs. The calfs of my legs are too stiff from training also. I know I know - stretching after working out ^^ No comments.

I will try to sing today. ARGH. Must do that more properly again, what is this?!

Ganbatteimasu~

Finally I showed some kiai~!!!

Oh-my-God.........................................
I am dead. And yet so damn alive!

It's past 4 A.M. and Y2 and I haven't gone to bed yet...
I've spent the last 1,5 hours looking frenetically after a blog post GACKT made about two years ago. I was looking through all entries of 2008, but didn't find anything... so I checked half of 2007 instead, and there, finally, I FOUND IT~!!

Dammit, I'm good!!

My eyes hurt terribly, and I feel dizzy...
I have to sleep. Yes, yes, yes.
After all, I had dizzyness attacks the previous night. But I decided I would NOT feel sick or anything as I usually do after I've had it... and guess what?... it worked! o__o I've felt totally fine for 24 hours now.

Today, or now I probably should say, yesterday, was a day with kiai. Absolutely.
I hope I can sleep well for a couple of hours now...

I'm good~!! Bwahahaha~!!

Goodnight.
Uhm... Goodmorning.

As usual, I'm up way too early when this occur.

Dizzyness attack tonight. We're at my summer house. Dammit! I who thought it was so comfortable sleeping, all cuddled close to my soulmate :'*
Then THIS happen and ruins all the comfie feelings! Gargh.

Still I feel kinda good, I'm glad it happened now rather than the night before the concert. But of course, one can never be sure it doesn't happen. But my chances of making it is higher now, I don't get attacks very often anymore and I'd be surprised if I got aother one just 3 weeks later too. Hmm, anyway who knows.

I woke up at 5 A.M.
Yup, woho, lovely world. But it's Ok since the sun is already shining outside, and it's a very beautiful veiw, if I look outside the door. AAH, hoping to sunbath a little today! ^^
And play some badminton. Jogg. We might stay here for another night. We'll see about that.

Ah, I wish I had a book to read at times like this. I'm getting bored.
But I cant seem to find "Nattfåk" as I would like to re-read.
Y2 is still sleeping. I'm sitting next to her in my bed. I wish to crawl back in bed beside her >_> I'm tired.

Jaaaaa~ shall I go and create a miracle today as well?

ChibiGaku2

I tend to talk when bored...

eyeyey! Where's summer heat??? Why all these clouds in the sky...?
GARGH.

So....
I've been eating outside, among at least 5.000 people. Wow.
I've been eating a LOT of food lately, vegetables also. Wow again.
I'm gonna start eating Gojiberries. YAY.

And now, Y2 and I are going to my summer cottage and sleep there until tomorrow. We're gonna play badminton ^^ and have funnn~ Got a chance to cuddle a little with the armycat Julia-sama ^__^ :'*

Wiiiiie I'm really excited 'cuz we've started eating well, and made our own mix of cereals we're going to eat in the mornings. Vitamins and yummy food, oh my, I love it. And on top of it I'm gonna start jogging in the mornings. Finally I took myself together and worked out a little today. Now I can go for the stomach muscles again 'cuz they've stopped hurting from last work out.

Jeeeesus, I got the advice to work out before the concert... >_> And we've decided we're going to start further away from the stage at first, rather in the back than in the front. If it feels good, we can move closer towards Gackt. Anywho, you'll be able to see a lot. I'm so excited!!! :'DDD It's unbelievable, I'm going to attend Gackt's first european concert ever. Because London is the first stop. I hope I won't die in there ^^;; Naaah...

Hmhmhmmhmmh....okok, I'm only writing because I have nothing else to do. Nyahaha.
See ya later then, bloggie~~~!

ChibiGaku2

Princess wedding, shaving, and rehab.

Yo everyone! Having a nice time in the sun??

The past week it has mostly been raining, so Y2 and I have not been outside as much as we propably should have.

Today is the swedish princess wedding day, and we're going to watch them afther they've gotten married. Thety're going to show themselves in public by riding a horse carriage. I personally think it's a bit silly, this "WHOA" thing about te whole wedding, but yeah... it can be fun I guess ^^. And for once the sun is shining a little.

Funny though, today I shaved my legs for the first time in my life XD It was... fun!
And yes I spoke the truth, it was the first time in my life. And I'm soon 18 years old. And a woman. AHAHAHA~~~ XDD Naaa, of course women don't have to shave! ^^ It's just hilarious because now G2 has gotten all fixated with it!! Like a true G - No hair!!

My rehabilitation is going far more better than I dared to believe was possible.
I feel GREAT!! All I think about since I got sick 3 weeks ago is...food... o___o; I eat a lot more now. At least I don't have problems eating anymore. And, the scale likes that! Been gaining weight! 8D ~~~ Just a tiny bit, but still. Surely my eating problems haven't gone away completely, I still think irritating much about it when I eat, but I don't feel as scared anymore. I'm absolutely a happier person now. This phobia destroys a lot of my good mood. But it's getting better!! ^___^ Ganbatteimasu~!

So... Off we go!

ChibiGaku2

bed-days

The past two days Y2 and I have been in bed ^^ hehe.
Raining, boring days. So we took our chance to be all sweet towards each other.
Honestly, it feels like I've been falling in love all over again. It's funny, we really needed that ^__^

So, sleep well.

ChibiGaku2

When I finally can keep my eyes open.

Yesterday I said goodbye to Solo Work, and wen't on vacation. It rained rivers!!! xD I had to bring my umbrella~ It's nice to have a break now.

So when I got home my heart was pounding really hard because Y2 is having her period now and obviously she felt sick because of it, so yeah... I started to cry because I'm so fed up with this feeling. I really hate to feel this way. Even though it's so much better now, I still have a really hard time when someone else is saying they feel sick or anything like that. Gah. I wanted to kill her and scold her for being so weak. It's just menstruation. but I guess she's more sensitive towards that kind of pain, I don't know, I'm in severe pain during mine, but I'm fine anyway. Jesus woman. But of course... she just can't help it. Pffft.

So I text messaged my friend (the cured Emet ^^) and told her about it, and she was in town so she could come and pick me up. It was weird, cuz I had never met her in person before. And then, about 15 minutes later I was sitting in her car. It was weird but fun! x) We went to her work, outside town and I helped her a little. Flower-stuff! xD

It was amazing to be with a person that truly understood what was going on inside me. I felt kinda safe. Wohoo for that! :D

Anywho... so today we've only been sleeping. Really, IDIOTS.
I hate it when I sleep too much!! I'm G2. Come on!!! So, now we have to start moving out of bed. Singing and working out, YES!!!

ChibiGaku2

Hanging out with G-chan & H-chan!

Uwah nervous breakdown today! I was gonna meet G-chan and H-chan today, and hohoho my nerves killed me. I got a feeling I haven't felt in years, and I was very upset because it came back. Anyway...

It was great fun to be with them today actually. H-chan and I chatt a lot over msn, but we've never met and talked in real life before. We've only walked past each other a few times when I was in the 6th grade and she in the 9th grade. The first thing that hit me was "Oh shit! I'm taller than her now!" xD I was honestly chocked. The secound thing was "Her voice, I have never heard her voice bofore O_O"... It was a strange feeling. Hai. So we met up with G-chan and walked to a park were we sat and talked for quite some time, then we played "cubb"~! ^^ It was a fun day. But gaaah, I forgot to cover my skin from the sun, so I got sun burned agin!!! Damn.

(pictures up later)

And another thing I just can't stop thinking about....


Gackt's muscles are HUGE. Just look at the arms!!... I really don't wanna see him exercising them on the gym. No way. End of sentence.

Oh my...it's bedtime... How time rushes ^^;
Tomorrow I'll head off to Solo Work for the last time before vacation. It's gonna be an awesome summer.

ChibiGaku2

Nervousness~ Yes!

I see the world with new eyes!
Since yesterday thoughts have been spinning around in my head like crazy. I was so nervous about the concert, so when Y2 and I went out to hand in school books, I constantly thought I was going to faint o_o.

It felt just like everything around me wasn't "real". It was all just a set with actors so that the directors could make me believe everything was as usual. The world is going on juuuust as usual. BUT I KNOW OTHERWISE!! XD The world is a completely different place now, I can see it and I can feel it. Reborn, or something o.O...

Of course I didn't faint or anything, but I was nervous as hell!!
I am also terrified that something similar will happen on the actual concert itself. I'll literally kill myself if I faint. I can't allow myself.... Even though I know I will have a really really really hard time to accept the fact that Gackt himself is standing a few meters away from me O_O. AGH.

And the best part is: You are probably allowed to bring your camera in there to take photos! :D Oh my...!! O2 Academy rocks!!

Anyway, in just 1 day from now, I'll get summer vaccation. It's gonna be a blessing. I've re-started training again, and I am going to work out 30 minutes every day, until the concert day. Don't wanna break in half out there in the crowd! >_> xD

ChibiGaku2

Ps. Trey-chan, I know you are envious, but hold on, hang in there, he will come to you as well~!! *Huggggsss*

GACKT concert next month!!

YES!!! WE GOT THEM!!!
WE'RE GOING TO SEE GACKT HIMSELF, LIVE, SINGING, HALF NAKED....OMG.

O_____O.........

Waiting just a little more.

Waiting comes to an end *shivers*

June 1th hit us right in the face!
GACKT is touring in Europe next month! Starting off in London.
Of course we're planning to go see him live! :D

It's now 12 hours left before the tickets for London go on sale, and I'm so nervous I almost shit my pants... XD The tickets for Germany were insane, the site crashed and oh my God. Paris is also gone. The ones for Barcelona is on sale right now, but no one seem to rush after them since they have been available for 6 hours now and they're still there. Weird, but anywho so we thought that if we don't get any for London we'll go for Barcelona instead (if they're still selling).

AAAH. So nervous!!!

I wanted to update here earlier but I am so afraid we won't get any and I don't want to be all hyper here to then get sad. But well well... Final day of waiting has come, now we just have to sleep for some hours and then attack it with full force! Pray for us, please! I have been praying daily~

ChibiGaku2